For venting purposes only

Hump day is almost over, and what a day it was.


I have been super proud of myself these past couple weeks.

They have been filled with making coffee at home, not eating out more than once or maybe twice, absolutely NO frivolous shopping sprees other than that new mascara i just couldn't say no to, and making Mr. Man drive for a change so I can skimp on the gas money. I have been very frugal with my time in division between sleep, school work, school and my actual job plus side jobs. I have found myself to be growing in a lot of random ways. Ways which make me smile to myself as I am driving down the road in the morning, or climbing into bed at night. I feel as if every day I wake up and although my days are fairly long and stressful, I feel as if I am just one day closer to walking right into my "purpose" in life.

But on a dimmer note-


First vent-ful situation.

I have a lot of random friends and than I have my few good and close girlfriends, and than I have my BEST FRIEND. The one that has been my partner in crime for YEARS.

She texted me on Sunday as I was walking out of church asking to hang out.
well, my schedule has been like clock work, the same every single week since school started a couple months ago.
I work Mon through Fri all day long, than Mon nights I have class. Wed I work a double and Sat and Sun I spend doing homework all day with the exception of Sun mornings when I take a little breaky poo for God and attend my darling church.

So it was rather odd that she was asking to hang out when my obvious answer would be I'm sorry I'm writing a paper today. And it was also odd how she called me the previous Wed wanting me to come out with her and friend.....knowing that was my day of double madness. So when I responded to her text with my itinerary for the afternoon she simply wrote back ok, well can you just call me when you have time to talk. Which is red flag and code in BFF terms for "I'm mad at you for something and dot dot dot...WE NEED TO TALK"

WEIRD. So I called her up happy to chat with her and immediately she starts going crazy with accusations and selfish lingo. Saying that I am never around and its not fair and I need to get my priority's in order. blah blah blah BLAH

yeah that entire conversation completely came out of left field. I had no idea that there was an issue AT ALL. I mean I totally understand my lack of availability in person as of lately, but I e-mail the girl every single day. I had texted her the day before as I was on my way to work just to tell her that I loved her and hoped her day was going splendid. AAAANNNDD for the past month now I have been creating a secret BFF day. I have been knitting her this gorgeous skarf, I got her the next season of house that she has been dieing for and I was planning on taking her out to dinner one night just to have drinks and get away. I suppose it was like a date for BFF'S. Coincidentaly I had just finished the skarf right before we had our little phone conversation.

It is really sad how everything is going because honestly I have been so stinking busy with school and work and trying to pay these dumb cards off that I havent had any time to see anyone. (Other than the date I went on with the Mr. last friday) but the sad part is how all my other "close" friends have still been in communication with me. In fact I could go months with only talking to them on the phone and we would still be just as close as ever. But apparently BFF doesnt undersand that sometimes for certain periods or season in a persons life, its normal to communicate strictly through e-mails and phone calls. I initially felt bad about the situation, but now after replaying the entire conversation in my head over and over again, I find my self becoming irritated and annoyed. I barily have time to sleep anymore, much less deal with unecessesary drama.

So that whole situation is driving me NUTS

THAN.....

Second Vent-ful situation:


I do all of my banking on line, I pay my bills online, check my statements online...EVERYTHING is done online.

A couple weeks ago, I made a $150.00 payment towards my express card. I have been super excited and proud of myself for all the payments I have been making so I have been excited checking their websites so i can watch my number (debt) decrees.

Now keeping in mind I made this payment two weeks ago, it has yet to be updated in their system. So I gave them a friendly little call today to to reassure myself that nothing was wrong and that they just hadnt updated anything yet.

Wrong again missy mae. My friendly express rep informs me that they never recieved my payment.

Well considering I do EVERYTHING ONLINE and it was DIRECTLY paid to them, and THE MONEY IS NO LONGER IN MY ACCOUNT.....THEY HAD TO HAVE TAKEN IT.

So now I have to jump through all these hoops with my bank and with this stupid company to prove that I did infact pay my bill.

GAAAAAHHH- Im so frustrated with these sticky situations. Its so discouraging.....but at the same time when I take a step back to look at these situations as a whole....its rather chuckle inducing.

Sorry for this downer of a blog, but I needed to start looking for clarity somewhere, and here seemed to be the perfet place to start.

So on a brighter note- tomorrow is Thursday which makes the day after that Friday.
Bring on the weekend, I can use and extra hour of sleep and sanity.

waaaaaaahhh.