To start anew

Hello friends,

here I am as a different me. :)

-my nephew on the right- =]

A quick little update on life as I plan on jumping forward with things as apposed to back:

I graduated from Aveda, I still have to take my written tests, but they are currently in the works.

I am still with my "Mr," I adore him. He's no mr. perfect, and I'm no Ms, but we certainly have been conquerors in this relationship.

I am still making jewelry, and still desire to have my own shop in the next 5 years or so.

-I still havent found the time to update my etsy site.

I am excited, SO SO excited to see where God takes this 23rd year of mine.

I have had so many close friends come and go within the past few years, some friendships I anticipated being short lived, and some came and went in and out of left field. There are few that remain as precious and impart-able. Those few I cherish and do my best to make time for and likewise weasle my way into their precious time frames.

My family has been through the wringer in the past 2 years. My youngest brother (17) is currently in rehab, about to get out in the next week and a half. I will be perfectly honest, I am terrified for when he comes home (elaboration's to come later.)

I have been through some pretty HUGE endeavors with my man's friends in the past month. Having gone through them, I have learned a lot about myself, and a LOT more about other people. weird how that happens. ;)

I have been so inspired this past week to make changes in all aspects. I have A.D.D in every aspect in life lol and if I am not working on 5 projects at one time, well I just wouldn't be me.

My first project under going tackle mode has been my mr's bedroom. Being that my boyfriend's license has currently been revoked, (he's working to get it back- not paying off tickets really get's one into some hot water) and his car conveniently broken, ive been spending most of my free time at his home 30 minuets from my own. I felt the burn to organize and gave him an ultimatum, either we started with his life, or mine... we have been organizing and cleaning since MONDAY...I was anticipating only Monday. YIKES...my renovation will come this next Monday- stay tuned. :)

I also am falling behind on my jewelry inventory, 70% I blame on Mr. not driving, 30% I blame on other things. UGGGHHHH

However, I see a break in the horizon, fall is coming, (my favorite favorite FAVORITE season) and with that comes my inspiration hat. I am excited!

That shall be all for now, I just wanted to ease my way back in.

Ciao~

begin again

Proverbs 21:23... I'm working on it.

HA

And one more thing while I'm at it...

What is up with this new google account stuff.... I feel as though I have to pull teeth every time I try to sign into this lovely world of words. I have a google account, but that isn't the account I use for this, I tried using it but I felt as though it wanted me to create and entirely new blog?????

waaaaaaaaaaah?????

E-bay outrage, and other thoughts

for the sake of a quick venting moment..... 

I tried using ebay for the very first time last night. I was attempting to purchase a pair of jeans, ecstatic that I was in the lead for them, I continued checking the outcome from my phone. I upped the anti once....and in the last 11 seconds was outbid..... I am so confused and rather sad by the turn of events ebay held for me. I can honestly say I went from an extreme ebay high to an over the top ebay LOW. 

Can anyone tell this lovely ebay NOOB how the ropes work?

ALSO, while I have you here: I'm looking for a natural way to wash fruit, any suggestions?

Happy hump day to you....I hope your joke day is full of bliss. Mine is full of snow. ;)

I'm back

I apologize greatly for my absence.... I can't promise it won't happen again, but for the time being here I sit. :)

There really are not that many land mines to throw at you as far as the life n times go. I got into cosmetology school, and will be starting at the end of august. I used my tax returns to pay off HALF of my credit card debt, and I haven't been shopping in months. Tomorrow is the day I choose to start my return of the early morning gym sessions. Lets hope it sticks. Other than that, hopefully the sun will choose to show itself tomorrow, and I hope everyone is blessed with numerous reasons to smile.

Love.

Wednesday's Child

First things first,

This in conclusion to my last post, will be filled with my hopes and dreams for the hopefully somewhat near future. BUT Im not going to dive right into it just yet. 

(I am promising that I wont ramble on today, and run out of time again. he he ha ha)

I have been slightly overwhelmed this week in many different aspects, which in turn unfortunately means I have been a tad bit crabbier than normal. Of course normal means never being crabby.....right. ;)

With all that comes with the elections (thank God they are passed) I have been a little more on edge. Through all of these different subjects that tend to arise and different opinions that get thrown around, I came to a sudden realization that the "Mr." and I have a VAST amount of things that we do not see eye to eye on....were not even in the same ball park, in fact we might possibly be on completely separate continents. So that being said, I spent many nights the past week crying my oh so secret tears. I assume its normal to not see eye to eye on everything, but I don't understand how we could be coming from to exact opposite ends of the spectrum and still be one as a couple. Its driving me nuts. And how do you date someone for months and completely bypass all of the important things that your morals and lives are built upon....

Am I just blowing things our of proportion? probably....

Well, than I had a slight case of amnesia about who I serve and who wholly takes care of me last night, when not the candidate of choice won the election. I bawled again every-time someone looked at me. But was quickly reminded that no matter what happens in this world, Jesus is still on the thrown. not my will, but his be done.

All that being said, onto the explanation of da da da MY FUTURE.

Last weeks when I posted my previous blog, I was so ecstatic about this plan that I had devised. That plan being this.

I have ALWAYS (ever since childhood) had an interest in cosmetology....what teenage girl didn't. In high school I told everyone that make up was my art, It was always my house that everyone came to get ready for school dances, and I was always the one doing everyone's hair and make-up. I have a sick passion for fashion which explains the majority of my credit card bills. 

The reason that I always said no to beauty school was because I let someone else words reign as law in my life.

I used to have these two leaders back in high school that went to my church. I was like one of their mini me's, and my best friend was the other. We did absolutely EVERYTHING with them. The lead a missions trip to El Salvador one year, and my Bff and I went with them. A lot of things happened on that trip, most of which were not great, but the one incident that I for some reason will never ever forget, was sadly the one thing holding me back from something I believe God called me to long ago. 

It was our last night in El Salv, and we had an early flight so all of us girls decided to pull an all nighter. We were all kind of bored and just sitting around, so I offered to give everyone make overs. Everyone got all excited about it, so I took about ten of the girls and started plucking, brushing, applying and teaching the art of the infamous pucker. The girls looked amazing when I had finished, many of them hadn't ever even held a mascara wand before much less knew what to do with it once the wand was in hand. So needless to say everyone was even more excited after completion, and I of course was feeling pretty good about myself. 

My leader took me aside about ten minuets later and started in with the, I know that you did an amazing job, and you certainly made this night a night to remember for a lot of these girls, however I have a strong request for you......

She made me promise that I would never ever going into cosmetology as a living, saying that I could do so much more with my life. That I had more purpose than this, and that I just shouldn't even consider it. 

long story short, our relationship didn't last long after that trip. her and her husband did a lot of shady things towards me that honestly rooted themselves deep down inside of myself. Things that I didn't understand at the time, and took years for me to get rid of. In fact I came to the realization a few years ago that even though I had not been friends with them for almost three years at that time, I was still doing EVERYTHING within my power to please them. They had planted themselves and their thinking so deep down inside of who I was that it literally took YEARS for me to realize that they were still holding me back.

Well long story shorter. I have been in a panic about my future for the last month or so, when it dawned on me....why am I not going to beauty school. What would I love more than getting up and doing hair, chatting with people every day....pretty much nothing.

Than it again dawned on me that they were the only thing holding me back. They haven't been a part of my life for years, why should I be afraid that anyone especially them would think any less of me.

I am going to do something great with my life, weather Im doing hair, or brushing teeth for a living. I am going to make a difference.

Now that I have finally gotten that out,

to spare the lengthy-ness of this post from getting any lengthier, 

this blog (again) will have to be "to be continued".......

sorry :)

XXOO

ok ok ok

so you missed me, I was wrong to assume otherwise. :)

well make no mistake about it, I adore each and everyone of my 4 followers. So much so that if I could bake, (which I cannot) I would totally mail you all little sugar pumpkin cookies in light of the season. Or maybe if we are going in "light" of the current season, I would bake little American flag cookies. But either way the fact remains that I simply Cannot bake.

I am going to skip the intro and the build up here because I'm just to excited to wait any longer.

I HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY FUTURE. or better yet I feel like God has finally given me a snippet of where he wants to direct me in the future. I simply CANT FREAKING WAIT.

There are so many things that I long to do with my life. In fact, the Mr. and I were walking around my favorite part of the city on Sunday and I randomly blurted out, "I really hope I do something great with my life." his obvious reply was "you will babe, you will." But honestly, I think there are two ways of looking at that statement.

One, if you believe that you are on your own, making choices and that the outcomes are not purposeful, only the effect of the choice you previously made.

well than yes, one could only HOPE to do something great with their life.

Two, if you believe that Jesus Christ has your heart. If you believe that, than no matter WHAT you CHOOSE to do with your life, as long as your following his voice and praying earnestly about the desires he has for your future than no matter WHAT you do, be it the smallest simplest every day thing, it is going to make an impact on someone somewhere which in turn will ripple through to someone else. Nothing that you do will not be HUGE.

I believe that as a christian, and as my love for the father grows, he calls and points me into different random directions all the time. Its simply up to me whether or not I want to follow. I could choose to do something that I think would be big with my life. Granted it could be HUGE, but would it really change the life's of others around me, or would I be just another name in the book of someone who did something. Or I could choose to simply sit back and listen with patients for the next step or direction, than go for it. Yes my name may not go down in history for any recognition as someone who did something great, but I would rather be underground changing lives, giving hope and love, than be standing on a pedestal somewhere.


Wow, so I know I said I was just going to come right out and spew my new vision on my future but it appears that I lied.......it also appears that I am out of time so that my friends will be the topic of my next post......stay tuned :)


love.